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Tuesday, June 05, 2007



Why do I feel so god damn Lost and Dejected. I know, many options are available. But, it doesn't help when I've people around me saying things that made me had the first thought of "WHAT NONSENSE?" For example, today, I'm being asked to find out if I can withdraw from SIM halfway through the first year if I want to because I'm being "advised" or maybe even not being given a choice but to, retake my As while I take up SIM (if I get accepted), which is evidently equivalent to starting uni plus retaking As. Then what is the point of me applying for SIM now? Why don't I just settle down to retake my As? ( which I evidently don't want to? ) I don't think I'm that capable of doing these two things at one time.

There are people discouraging me from retaking my As and there are also people who are doing the opposite, encouraging me to retake my As if need to.

All these just adds on to my confusion. Not that I don't appreciate their advices and for hearing me out. I do appreciate the advices a lot. However, there is just an inevitable feeling of feeling very much like a failure at this stage of my life. I am really at a loss. And one day, ........................................................

It's just a matter of time.


* S H A T T E R E D 10:58 PM